Friday, June 01, 2007
Home Decorating: Boys' Room
Of course, if the baby I am now carrying turns out to be a girl, we might be in trouble. If he's boy, we'll just add another bed or set of bunks to the boys' room.
Home Decorating: Girls' Room
Home Decorating: Master Bedroom
If I could, I would replace the Jacobean table with a roll-top or some other kind of desk that would hide any trace of technology (Ian's computer, etc). It would take up less room than the table, and could be put in the corner. I would then replace the card table with the Jacobean for my sewing (and while I was at it I would replace my Brother sewing machine with a new Bernina heehee - I might as well dream big! If I REALLY dream big I will dream up a sewing room with a clean, neat place for all the supplies I need. I want and get it out of my bedroom altogether - but that will be another post). I would like to get the big green recliner out too, but there isn't another place to put it, and it seems to be the only place I can sleep (or at least rest) during those last months. I wish I could at least replace it with something smaller and more feminine (but just as comfortable). Next to it I have a small side table with attached lamp. It doesn't really "go" but I need light when I work on hand sewing, reading etc. It is in a "country" style, so maybe with a new coat of paint it would work somewhere else in the house.
Home Decorating: Master Bath
Home Decorating: Living Room
We currently have two large sofas, a love seat (that matches one of the sofas - both quite faded), a coffee table, a matching side table that has at least one broken leg, a hand-me-down piano that is badly in need of tuning on the inside and refinishing on the outside, a sofa table that is in use as an altar, and an old fiberboard cabinet with a TV on it. The kids keep all their kitchen toys in it and "cook" and have picnics in the living room. The doors do not close all the way & I am always afraid the very heavy TV is gong to fall on the baby, who likes to climb!
What I would like to do is throw everything out and start over. However, I don't think that's going to happen. I like having enough comfortable seating for everyone, but I just can't get it to look nice, even with sofa covers, and I don't find this room a peaceful place to be. There's just too much in it and none of it seems to "go" with anything else. I really want to get a nice TV armoire so that I can hide the TV away when it's not in use. I would put it in front of the wall between the closet door and the opening to the dining/kitchen area, perhaps flanked by matching (or at least coordinating) book cases. On the book cases I would put potted plants, a matching buffet lamp on each one, and nothing else. I don't think I would put anything on the wall above them. I'd throw away the old fiberboard cabinet, and find another place for the kitchen toys.
If I could, I would get rid of all of the seating and get one pretty love seat and two upholstered chairs to go in the middle of the room, centered around the windows. I'd like one of those small coffee tables with a glass-topped cabinet for display in it so I could put some decorative items in it without danger of little hands breaking them (things like Russian lacquer boxes, silver bouquet holders, little porcelain figurines, the displays changed with the seasons). As it is, I don't have the budget to do this, and will probably just give away one of the sofas and save up to buy some nicer slip covers for the matching sofa & love seat. I would like to move the coffee table to the guest room (which is a play room for the older kids to play with things that the littler ones might swallow). It is the perfect height for the kids to build things on with Lego.
The upright piano I would like to have fixed and restained one color (it currently has brown on most of the body and orangish paint streaked on the lid and front. I don't know how it ended up this way). I do not know where I would put it at the moment besides its current location between the fireplace and the door to the Master bedroom. I would not put anything on it, but on the wall above it I would put a framed picture (I don't know what yet). The cover on the bench I would replace with something other than brown velveteen with orange flowers on it. It isn't hideous, but it doesn't "go." Above the fireplace I would like to hang a large framed mirror, (or one like this) with nothing but a couple of seasonal items on the mantel (pillar candles for winter, white tapers in tall silver or crystal candlesticks (or these) for summer, a couple of ball topiaries for spring, etc.)
The altar I would like to put in a place where it is prominent and usable, but I really don't know where. It is currently against the wall between the Master bedroom door and the opening to the kitchen. I wish I could center it on the wall opposite the windows, but there is no wall there - just the open space to the kitchen with the pass-through in it. Even if there were no other furniture in this room, there would be no prominent place to put it. maybe it can be transfered to the buffet in the dining room. The Guadalupe picture will already be there. I don't know where we would put our Sacred Heart wall statue (He's 3 -dimensional, except that his back is flat, to hang on a wall). I'll try to post pictures later so you can give me ideas.
Home Decorating: Dining Room
In this room there is also a metal cabinet that holds school supplies, my computer desk and chair, and a buffet. My desk's horizontal surface ends up looking pretty bad because if the kids break a toy or draw a picture for me, or if they don't know where something goes, guess where they put it? I do this too, so I am partly to blame. It has a hutch, where I used to keep my cookbooks (when the desk was in the kitchen), but it was put in the garage when we first put the house on the market because we expected to move right away. If I had my 'druthers I would replace this desk with a roll top or something to hide my computer from view unless I were using it. I would get an attractive (not metal) file cabinet to file away beautiful artwork and broken toys until I could get to them. I would also replace the metal cabinet with something attractive (wood would be nice). The buffet is nice, but it needs to be cleaned and polished (and dusted regularly). I have a beautiful framed picture of Our Lady of Guadalupe which I would love to hang above the buffet, flanked with metal candle sconces or lamps of some sort. I would also like to replace the ceiling fixture with something more attractive than the flush-mount glass bowl with the "energy saver" bulb in it. A chandelier like this would be nice, and keep with the "country" feel of the place. I would probably put little lamp shades on it. I don't know if there would be a way to center it above the table (or put two in), as the light fixture is not currently centered above the room). There is one long wall in here which I would like to turn into a family photo gallery. I have portraits of our family and I want to frame them and get them on the walls where they can be enjoyed. If we do paint the walls barn red, I think the pictures would look good in black frames with white mats.
Home Decorating: Kitchen
I also want to add a little color to the floor in the form of a rug near the sink, and a pot-hanger above the sink where I could hang plants in front of the window. I would love to add lighting to the counters, but I am not sure how to do this (nor do I have the budget). I have some appliances on the counters, and I would like to keep them in the cabinets until I use them. Clutter accumulates on any horizontal surface & it is a constant battle for me, as I don't have a place (or this) to put a lot of the stuff that ends up there (my purse, receipts, cookbooks, notebooks, etc). I know I have a lot in the cabinets that I never use, so I am going to get rid of a lot of that so I can make room for my appliances and maybe have a special place where I can put the phone book and other things that are needed but don't have a home. I'd also like to have some sort of box I can hang that will have holes on the bottom and a door on the front, where I can "hide" my cell phone while it charges. I don't like the "look" of technology and would rather hide as much of it as possible. If I could have clear counters all the time (except for when I am actually preparing and serving a meal) I think I would be happy with my kitchen. I would love to only have a vase of fresh flowers on the island counter, and possibly some decorative item, like a rooster statue (or this one) or pretty lamp on the pass-through, and a fruit basket. A galley slave to clean up after me would be nice, while I am dreaming.
There's a big blank wall between the mud room and the living room, where we recently placed a chest freezer. There's still lots of room, so I would like to put a "family center" here -I have a magnetic dry erase board here but would like to replace it with a magnetic blackboard and a shelf for chalk, eraser, extra magnets to "keep it country" - I think the white dry erase board says "technology" don't you? Maybe I'd top it with some wall decor - a clock perhaps, even though there is a digital clock on the microwave and the stove. How are my kids ever going to learn how to tell time if there are no "real" clocks in the house? I'd also like to move our family calendar here. It is currently on the side of the refrigerator, but it's not easy to access because of the counter.
Home Decoration: Entrance/Mudroom
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Home Decorating
The next time I was pregnant, I painted the Master Bath "Neptune Blue" (dark) and added metallic gold swirls freehand all over. I like it, but it definitely does not look professional. I am considering covering it and painting something else that might be less scary to potential buyers.
Then, during another pregnancy, my Sister-In-Law came over and watched the kids while I painted a fairytale mural in the girls' room. I should say I STARTED the mural. I painted the background land color and sky on three walls, and added a castle on a hill, a big tree in a corner, a lake by the hill, flowers, and clouds in the sky. I meant to paint the wall surrounding the closet doors to look like a wooden wardrobe, but I never got that far.
Another time my Mother-In-Law and I painted the living room and mudroom a beautiful color called "Roasted Cashew." I got paint chips back then in shades of tan and rose that coordinate with that color, which I have wanted to add to the walls of the dining room, hall & Master Bedroom. More recently I found paint chips in blues and greens that also coordinated with those colors for the boys' room and the guest room/storage room/ whatever else room and hall bath.
Instead, though, right after I gave birth to my 14 month old, I invited a family with teenage and pre-teen boys over to help me paint the boys' room and the dining room white, because I thought that would be more appealing to potential buyers. Well, no one made an offer on the house in the 18 moths that it was on the market (perhaps due to the "scary" Master Bath, but no one ever said anything), so now I am looking for a more colorful way to express "home" that would still be appealing to potential buyers.
I just found this over at Starry Sky Ranch.
This country look would work well in our home. We live in the country (on 5 acres), and most of the year we have cool if not cold winds blowing. I think cozy colors would make this house, with its large white walls, more inviting. I don't necessarily like the "shabby" look of the used furniture with the scraped paint job or ladder used as a decoration, but I think the wall colors used here (warm barn red in the dining area paired with the black furniture, and the warm honey walls of the family room with new upholstered chairs) are charming. The light fixtures and other "country" decorations add the finishing touch.
I have been too afraid to put much on our walls. I know I probably have plenty of things that would look nice on display, but I lack the confidence in painting & putting up shelves or even putting a nail in the wall.
I am pregnant now, and the weather will hopefully be getting warmer soon, so it is the perfect time to do SOMETHING! I tend to have the creativity, energy & will to do that kind of work when I am pregnant, if you hadn't noticed.
I have decided to put each of the rooms in a different post for easier reading. This post was getting way too long. I hope I am not boring anyone. These home decor posts are basically so I can put my thoughts into words and decide what I can do and what I cannot do to make my house run more smoothly and be more peaceful.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Peter Rabbit
Discussion questions: Did Peter do as he was told by his mother? Did he get into trouble? What did he get for supper? Did Flopsy, Mopsy and Cottontail obey Mrs. Rabbit? Did they get into trouble? What did they get for supper? How should we behave when our parents tell us to do something?
Outdoor Activities:
Mr. McGregor's Garden
Plant Peter's favorite vegetables (carrots, lettuces, radishes, parsley, etc.) in a small garden plot or in containers if you don't have the space in the yard. You might consider planting "rabbit tobacco" (lavender) and chamomile, too! Take care of your garden throughout the summer and harvest your vegetables.
Make and run an obstacle course, like Peter running away from Mr. McGregor
Take a nature walk through a rural area: spot bunnies or rabbit tracks. See what other animals or tracks you can find! Keep a nature journal an draw the animals, plants & tracks you see.
Indoor activities:
Pretend to be a bunny in the living room or play room. Hop slowly, like Peter did when he was trying to find his way out of Mr. McGregor's garden (lippity, lippitty).
Draw Peter and his family in various scenes from the book, or use your imagination and draw what you think they might do on another day.
Snack: carrot sticks, salad, veggies with dip, chamomile tea with a little sugar or honey (and milk if you like)
Friday, April 27, 2007
New Project!
So! As we near the summer months I am going to attempt to compile my own ideas here. We'll start with Peter Rabbit, since soon we'll be able to go outside and garden and see rabbits hopping around. My next post will have some activity ideas for children to do with adults after reading the story. I hope you enjoy them. Please feel free to add your own comments with ideas for any books you liked as a child or any your own children like, as well as activities (including cute snacks)!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Lent is over, time for a meme
It's been a long time since I posted anything, and as I live my life and care for my children, I find that there is really very little time for me to blog much. I intended for this site to be a weekly spiritual exercise, but sitting at the computer offers too many distractions from what I really ought to be doing during the day (home school, kid care, meals, dishes, laundry, etc). And at night when the kids are in bed and Ian comes home I don't want to be at the computer!
Anyway, I have a few minutes today to fill out this meme. I don't play tag, so if you feel like answering this yourself, just leave me a comment so I can know more about you.
1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:20am (I think)
2. Diamonds or pearls? Pearls mostly, but some day I'd like to wear diamonds with a dark blue velvet dress!
3. What was the last film you saw at the theater? Night at the Museum (at Christmastime).
4. What is your favorite TV show? I really have no idea what's on - we don't have TV. We did borrow the 1st season of 24 a while back and that was fun. I also liked Stargate.
5. What did you have for breakfast? Oatmeal with bits of dried apricot in it.
6. What is your middle name? Maria
7. What is your favorite cuisine? I like all kinds of food. I have a craving right now for Chinese (specifically egg rolls and lemon chicken) . And pickles. And pistachio ice cream. I'm pregnant.
8. What foods do you dislike? I really dislike liver, but not in all its forms. I like pate and liverworst on crackers or in a sandwich.
9. What are your favorite chips? Pringles in the potato variety, and I like white corn chips (no particular brand, as long as they're crispy & not thick) in the corn category, with salsa and guacamole.
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Hmmm. Hard to say. I like Enya, the soundtracks to the Lord of the Rings movies, and Haydn.
11. What kind of car do you drive? Chevy Venture 2003 minivan - this is for sale, if anyone is interested and lives in the Colorado Springs area or can get here to pick it up. We're about to outgrow it (as I said, I am pregnant, and as soon as baby #7 is born we will need a new van, but we need to sell this one first).
12. Favorite sandwich? BLT. With avocado. I'm hungry.
13. What are characteristics you can't stand? insincerity, lying
14. What are your favorite clothes? ballet-neck linen dress with soft floral print and princess seams, and heels.
15. If you could go anywhere on vacation where would you go? Italy
16. One random fact about myself: I like to sew (and wear) costumes from various time periods.
17. Where would you want to retire? Colorado. I love it here!
18. Favorite time of day? nap time! And when Ian gets home!
19. Where were you born? California
20. What is your favorite sport to watch? Hockey, but i don't watch sports much.
21. Coke or Pepsi? neither - I don't like soda much. I'd rather have root beer if there's ice cream in it ;)
22. Beavers or ducks? What a weird question. To eat? Ducks. To watch build dams? Beavers.
23. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Neither. I like 9 AM to about 1 PM for being awake.
24. Pedicure or manicure? manicure I think, but I have never had a pedicure (first one is scheduled for Monday)
25. What did you want to be when you were little? a veterinarian.
26. What is your best childhood memory? Playing in the back yard with my siblings, building villages for the Star Wars figures in the sand box. And swimming at night in our swimming pool with our cousins, and making "night rainbows" with a hose and a bright light.
27. Ever been to Africa? No
28. Ever been toilet papering? No
29. Been in a car accident? Yes.
30. Favorite day of the week? Monday. No kidding!
31. Favorite restaurant? 3 Margaritas is up there. The Briarhurst Manor is WAY up there.
32. Favorite flower? rose
33. Favorite ice-cream? Coffee
34. Favorite fast food restaurant? Wendy's or Chick Fil A
35. How many times did you fail your driver's test? None.
36. From whom did you get your last e-mail? Pikes Peak Library District
37. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? I don't have a credit card, but I would spend money, if I had it, at Bombay Company, Pottery Barn, Restoration Hardware, Williams Sonoma, and a good nursery.
38. Last person you went to dinner with? Ian - 10th anniversary dinner!
39. What are you listening to right now? Kids playing in the living room.
40. What is your favorite color? red
41. How many tattoos do you have? None
42. How many people are you sending this to? zero
43. What time did you finish this blog entry? Well, at this question, it is 10:53am.
44. Favorite magazine: Faith & Family and Romantic Homes, when they don't go overboard on the Shabby Chic look.
45. Coffee or tea? I like both, but rarely have either.
46. Do you tan easily or burn easily? neither. I don't go outside much. I guess I tan when I do gardening in the summer.
47. Do you color your hair? No
48. What was the first car you ever purchased without the help of your parents? 1996 Voyager minivan (actually my husband bought it)
49. What is your most dreaded household chore? Ironing.
h/t: St. Francis Academy
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Bleg for Prayers and Letters
Monday, February 12, 2007
Housekeeping Meme
Aprons – Y/N?
Yes! I just bought a new one because my old one was tearing at the pockets. It is my uniform for daily tasks from homeschooling to cooking to cleaning. I have used its pockets to carry produce from the garden or seeds and tools TO the garden.
Baking – Favorite thing to bake:
Blackberry Wine Cake
Clothesline – Y/N?
Yes, in summer.
Donuts – Have you ever made them?
No, but I have been tempted. Actually, I think I attempted them once, before I was married.
Every day – One homemaking thing you do every day:
Dishes
Freezer – Do you have a separate deep freeze?
Yes, in the mudroom.
Garbage Disposal – Y/N?
No. Compost.
Handbook – What is your favorite homemaking resource?
My Mother-In-Law. No kidding - she's good at it and I admire her orderliness!
Ironing – Love it or hate it?
Ask my poor husband. Better yet, don't.
Junk drawer – Y/N? Where is it?
Well, I don't have enough drawers to designate one for "junk" but I have a "storage room" (which is also a play room for the older kids, a guest room, a Christmas present wrapping room, etc. heehee. It used to be a sewing room and my dh's office when he worked from home.)
Kitchen: Design & Decorating?
big & open with a large island in the middle. Not much in the way of decorating, unless you count "clutter, early 2000s." I actually think my kitchen is too big for me - I am a small person and find it tiring to work in there, even though I like to cook. I would design a smaller, more efficient space. Good for parties, though.
Love: What is your favorite part of homemaking?
Cooking, and putting fresh linens on the beds.
Mop - Y/N?
Yes but not often enough.
Nylons - Wash by hand or in the washing machine?
washing machine.
Oven - Do you use the window, or open the door to check?
Window, unless I need to check the temp. Time to clean the window by the way. Yuck.
Pizza - What do you put on yours?
Oooo... Feta, fresh tomato slices, a bit of olive oil, fresh mushrooms...maybe asparagus if it weren't so expensive!Quiet - What do you do during the day when you get a quiet moment?
What's that? Can I get it online? Actually, pray a rosary, spiritual reading or nap.
Recipe card box - Y/N?
No. If it isn't in my head, online or in a book I won't find it again.Style of house -
2000 manufactured ranch-style
Tablecloths and napkins - Y/N?
Yes. Tablecloth or place mats for every meal. Usually paper napkins, but I am trying to build a collection of cloth for every day use so I can just throw them in the wash.
Under the kitchen sink - Organized or toxic wasteland?
Neither. Not much under there except some empty jars for disposing of used oil, but it could use a scrub-down around the trash can.
Vacuum - How many times per week?
I'll let you know when we get the vacuum fixed.
Wash - How many loads of laundry do you do a week?
average: one or two a day except Sundays.
X’s - Do you keep a daily list of things to do and cross them off?
No. I have tried this, but I keep misplacing it. I haven't found my "system" yet. I do put important things on the calendar, which I look at several times a day. I get daily reminders from www.fylady.net in my email, too.
Yard - Who does what?
dh mows and waters grass and trees, and helps me prepare the soil for seeds, and I water and tend the flower and vegetable gardens in summer.
Zzz’s - What is your last homemaking task for the day before going to bed?
Clear the dinner table, put food away. If dh doesn't have time, sometimes I will wash dishes and clean the sink, check on kids in bed and turn out lights.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
My Path
A few weeks ago I was really excited about painting all the rooms in the house and had the energy to do it. Unfortunately, it was extremely cold outside and I couldn't do it (although we did buy some new interior doors to replace the ones on the children's rooms, and some nice paint to go on them). It is nice and warm today (has been in the 60s the last few days) but I have no time, energy or desire to paint. All I want to do is take a nice, long (like 2 days long), hot shower and then sleep for a week on clean cotton flannel sheets under a down comforter in a dark room.
Instead I am feeding the kids some good leftover chicken stir-fry I made yesterday, and finishing up today's school work with Lucy, and listening for Peter's voice (I put him down for a nap but the other kids keep forgetting that shouting in the house is not allowed). God knows what is good for me. Sure, I could use a week at the spa, but changing diapers and doing laundry is the path God has set me upon, and it is the path that leads to heaven.
Well, it is quiet time now, so maybe I will get a 20 minute shower.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
We Are in Exile on This Earth
We're also, incidentally, trying to budget in some goat shares (for milk) and have friends who can sell them to us, as well as sell us fresh eggs, and my In-Laws this very night offered to go in with us on a side of beef (grass fed, no hormones, etc), even though we had not yet mentioned our thoughts to them yet.
A year ago I was on bed rest, very anxious about having my 6th child out here during a snow storm. I though for sure the house would sell on the day I went into labor and i would be hauling boxes through a blizzard to the moving van between contractions, and my midwife wouldn't be able to get to us. Such were the mad ramblings of a stressed-out pregnant woman! Now, a year later, I would still like to move, but I am at peace with staying here as well, if that is His will.
Well, tomorrow is my Sabbath, and it is getting late. I must go to bed so I can get out early and have a good mini-retreat tomorrow (Monday). Please say a prayer for me for a fruitful day.
For some reason this did not get posted on Sunday, so I'll try again today! I will be off-line for a week or so while we get a new Internet provider. If you submit comments and they bounce back as undeliverable, please check back here on or around Feb. 5th. I should have a new email address by then.
Friday, January 05, 2007
Primary Art Winter 2007
Week 1 (Jan 10) Epiphany
Project: Erin had mentioned making treasure boxes representing the gifts of the Magi, but that was before we realized how little money we had. One other possibility is making paper crowns and painting or coloring them (Thank you, Mimi, for the idea).
Week 2 (Jan 17) January is Dedicated to the Holy Name of Jesus
Project: make a monogram of "IHS" using stiff paper as a background, and outline the letters with yarn, gluing it in place. Then paint the "badge" gold and use yarn to hang it around the child's neck, indicating that we belong to Him.
Week 3 (Jan 24) Conversion of St. Paul
Week 4 (Jan 31) Presentation of the Lord/Candlemas
Project: make "tin" lanterns out of foil-covered cardstock and punch holes in it in Christian designs. Parents can add a tea light at home.
Week 5 (Feb 7)
Week 6 (Feb 14) St. Valentine
Project: quilling with strips of pink, red, or purple paper. Make a Valentine for Jesus, our True Love.
Week 7 (Feb 21) Ash Wednesday/ Lent
Week 8 (Feb 28) Ember Days
Project: Make a set of sacrifice beads if I can find pony beads, strong cord, small crucifixes and holy medals VERY inexpensively or free. OR make a "Pocket Rosary Card" on a piece of cardstock (business card size or index card size): make indentations around the edge with an embossing plate or something similar, and paint or draw a Marian picture on the card.
Week 9 (Mar 7)
Week 10 (Mar 14) St. Patrick & St. Joseph
Project: make a shield out of cardboard, cover it with foil, and glue on symbols of the saints
Week 11 (Mar 21) Annunciation
Week 12 (Mar 28) Palm Sunday/Holy Week/Easter
Project: Make a cross out of tongue depressors and glue, paint it, and sculpt a Corpus out of air-drying clay and glue it onto the cross.
We are trying to follow the Liturgical Year as much as possible. If you have any ideas for themes, projects, or where we can get supplies for nothing or next-to-nothing, please feel free to comment! I cannot figure out how the original teacher was going to teach painting, sculpting, etc., with so little money! As it is, our class is going to be more "Crafts" than "Art." I do have to mention a few rules we have: No glitter or sequins or other small hard-to-pick-up objects, and no burning things like candles or incense.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Merry Christmas and Back to School
We began our new semester of school this week, and although my 6-year-old said she does not like school because it involves Math, we are off to a pretty good start.
Next week is the first week of our homeschooling co-op, and I am teaching a Primary Art class to 7-9 year-olds. Some other moms and I are taking this class over from the original teacher, who is unexpectedly moving out of state this month, so we are having to use our imaginations to come up with a program! Not only do we not have a plan, we have only $4.12 to spend on each class period (for all 11 students, NOT each student). We'll be doing a lot of paper projects, but I don't know how we are supposed to buy supplies for the "painting, sculpture," etc. that are in the course description! We are planning on tying in each of the 12 classes with some part of the Liturgical Calendar that falls close to the class date. So the first one will deal with Epiphany, the second with the Holy Name of Jesus, etc. Any ideas?
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Thank God Advent Isn't Over Yet!
So many times I make plans for how I am going to show God that I love Him, if only He would....(name your favor). " If You can send us enough money to be (more than) comfortable, I will build a beautiful church and a retreat center where your faithful can gather and worship You the way Your Church asks us to." "If only You would send a buyer for our house and find us a new house closer to my husband's work, I would go to Mass daily." My "if onlys" are numerous. But God in His infinite wisdom and mercy has seen fit not to grant me these and other prayers.
He knows best. I am at this moment a wife and mother. I have my little built-in congregation of six children, and they look to me for their daily wants and needs. Too often I push them away because I "don't have time" to listen to Margaret read her first sentence to me, to watch Andrew do a daring somersault, or help Annie get a paper towel down so she can wipe up the spill I asked her to wipe. I am too busy washing dishes (because I did not do them last night when the kids were in bed), doing loads of laundry (because I haven't done any for the last 5 days and it is an emergency NOW), or stuffing things into closets as a Realtor walks up the drive (because I have too much STUFF and no place to put it). What was I doing when I should have been doing these things daily? Was I sitting with my children reading to them or teaching them how to make cookies or how to water the African Violets without wetting the leaves? Was I cultivating the virtues in myself or in them, the dear children whose lives and souls are in my hands?
I am ashamed to admit that the answer is NO (at least not consistently). I am not ready for our Lord to come. I am not even ready for the buyer of this house, whoever that may be, to come. I am not ready for any of the gifts that I so fervently ask my Lord to give me. I am not even ready for the wonderful gifts He has already given me. I am like an ungrateful child who demands a new toy, only to neglect it and demand another, newer one.
Dear Lord, forgive me, Your ungrateful child. I know that You are always ready to take me back into Your loving arms and cover me with the graces I need to follow where You lead me. You give me everything I need and more. Help me to see Your gifts for what they are, and to be grateful for them. Help me to be aware that You are coming, and that You're already here in the little ones I am to bring to You. Give me the grace to see the path clearly and the courage to take it, one diaper at a time.

